Well, I sit here tonight (missing my 20 yr. class reunion from HS) thinking about my big business trip to Connecticut tomorrow. I am not looking forward to 3 days of meetings with a bunch of people I've either never met in person before or only met briefly at our annual audit. Three days of business suits and business meetings, company politics, pantyhose and high heels. Oh geesh, it's almost a dream come true. Did I mention it is in Connecticut in February??? I'm really not feeling the love for this trip. I have so much to do here at home and I hate the idea of leaving my babies for four days. It's not that I cannot be away from them but usually if I'm away from them it is because they leave me for WV each summer or I leave them for some fun reason (CampAPhi, gambling, Scrapbooking, Girl's Outings). Now I'm leaving them to sit in a conference room and learn about a new imaging system for work that will make us paperless in 2008. WhooHoo!!!
As for missing my class reunion, I cannot say there was much heartbreak on that one. The thing I cannot wrap my finger around is how I lost interest in those people when they were so much a part of my every thought all those years ago. I was so wrapped up in my HS friends and life that my first few years of college suffered because I couldn't focus on the here and now. I was running home to Ennis every weekend to be with my friends. I thought they would be in my life forever. But mother knew best!!! Whenever a friend would break my heart or let me down, my mother would tell me that I would come away from HS with one or two close friends and lose touch with all the rest. I thought the woman was crazy!! These were my friends - my life - my party buddies. Lo' and Behold - Mom was right. I have one close friend that I keep in contact with thru email and phone calls and the rest have faded into the far recesses of my mind. Many emails have been floating between my classmates about this reunion and the big plans for this evening and I've enjoyed reading them. Talks of the nuns that scared us back in the day, the silly things we did to upset the teachers, etc.....but none of those stories or even knowing that all my closest friends from back then were planning to attend made me want to be at this reunion. Maybe it is because my life is so full. My sisters fill up any open spots left in my life and heart after my family. I really hope that the SJS HS Class of 1987 had a blast tonight without me and maybe I'll feel differently in 5 years or maybe I'll just be curious then!! I know I'll hear all the gossip from S next week when I get back from CT and maybe I'll be sorry I stayed home tonight or maybe I'll be even more glad that I did!!
Better get packing for my early flight tomorrow.
2 comments:
I had always heard that the best friends you make (and the lasting ones) were from college years. Although I AM planning on attending my 20th HS reunion, I can completely understand why you didn't. Those people do seem like such a distant memory, but I for one feel the need to see where everyone has ended up. I have exchanged emails with a few, and like me they have struggled through the almost 20 years since graduation. There have been divorce, children, change in jobs and/or career, multiple moves, parents now getting frail. I think for me its realizing that life is short and that people in my life (especially family members and parents) that are now getting older have a limited amount of time left on this earth. For some reason, I feel the need to "reconnect" with friends and family members that over the last 20 years I really haven't had much to do with. For me its more about the circle of life I think. But regardless of who I make that renewed connection with, I think that my sisters are the ones that will be the ones I turn to (like I always have) in times of heartache and happiness. You guys are the ones that see in my life no matter what happens and I thank you for that. :)
Oh, and by the way....have FUN on your trip!!
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