Last year at this time I wrote: I think we need a vacation together to reconnect. It's so difficult w/ two kids, three jobs, separate hobbies and the rest of life to find time to be together to talk, cuddle or anything else for that matter. After 19 years together, we will find a way to reconnect but it's just a difficult time right now and I'm a bit bummed about it.
Wow, how ironic because this week I have again been feeling disconnected from my spouse. Maybe it coincides with the loss of my grandfather? Maybe it is the fact that ever since my father in law died, my husband has not been the same. There are moments where he seems to be his "old self" but then there are times I don't even feel like I know him anymore. Well, today after work we are leaving for a weekend in Louisiana. Shreveport tonight and Nachitchoes tomorrow night. He planned the trip which you would think was romantic but funny thing is this trip is actually a glaring reminder of how little he knows me. See he planned this trip originally for Mother's Day weekend. His plan was for us to get up Saturday morning and drive straight to the little B&B we stayed in last summer. I love that little town and the B&B was great BUT: 1) I wanted to be with my kids and my mom for Mother's Day weekend; 2) I'm really not the antique shopping, stroll by the river kind of gal. I hate to sweat. I hate bugs. I really am not a big fan of other people's old stuff; 3) If I'm going to Louisiana I want to gamble. His weekend plans did not include a stop in Shreveport.
Alot of things came up that weekend so we agreed to move the B&B weekend to later in the month. Fast forward to last week when I arranged for a free night in Shreveport for tonight. He was okay with the idea of going away a night early but seemed befuddled this morning when I asked him to get me some gambling money for the trip. I'm sorry but tomorrow we will be doing what he wants to do. Tonight is mine. You would think after 20 years he would know that to me a vacation gambling is the best vacation there is. I love the beach and I love a good relaxing getaway but if you can combine that with a casino - I'm so there! I don't have a problem or anything with gambling - I haven't been to Shreveport since last November. I just like to go if the opportunity presents itself.
I'm hoping we do reconnect a bit this weekend. I think we need the 'alone' time.
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