Random

So I've had the Twilight DVD for 5+ days now and still haven't watched it. There is just no time in my life for frivolous things like DVD watching. I do not regret waiting in line to get it as it feels like a major accomplishment to own it. I know someday my life will slow down and I'll actually have time to sit and watch all the special features.

My grandmother is heading back to WV tomorrow after a 6 wk visit with my parents. Every time she visits, I always feel like I did not spend enough time with her when the trip is over. There is always the worry that she won't be back again. There is always the guilt because I never make the trip up to WV anymore due to lack of vacation time. I love spending time with her and wish I could squeeze some free time in my life to do so. Every evening when I go over there to pick up the kids, I have to rush out the door to get Ash to tennis or home to start homework. My mom doesn't cook much anymore so the evenings of hanging out for dinner are a thing of the past. I thought by having my parents in the same town, I would be able to spend more time with my grandmothers when they visit but life always seems to get in the way.

This leads to the realization that I have officially become my daughter's chauffeur. I do not get to drive a limo, nor do I have the nice black hat......I have a piece of crap Grand Prix that is always messy, always packed w/ junk and always on the move. Ash asked when she could start riding in the front seat and I told her that as soon as I find my passenger seat under all the crap I carrying in there every day - she's more than welcome to sit in it. In the meantime, she can stay in the back and let me chauffeur her in style. In the truck of my car, I have bags of stuff that need to be returned to various stores, I have a bag of clothes to take to a consignment store, I have coat hangers that need to be thrown in the trash and a pair of tennis shoes that I've never worn but carry just in case I ever decide to actually exercise at work or something?? In my front passenger seat is a pile of magazine, coupons and articles that I always intend to read or use. I usually end up carrying them around for so long that the coupons expire and the magazines are irrelevant. On the floor of front seat is a bag of used ink cartridges from my printer that I intend to donate whenever I have the time to find a place to drop them off. In the backseat is a variety of food particles, a few cards from a Cars deck that E destroyed, random toys, lots of dirt and usually an article of one of the kids clothing that they drop back there and never get out. I used to take such good care of my vehicles but I've never liked this one and it shows. I'm embarrassed to let anyone see inside my car. Those that have known me a long time would be appalled by the junk in my trunk. :-) Maybe if I ever find that mystical moment of free time to go and buy a new car - I will take better care of the next one???!!! Who am I kidding - til the kids go off to college I'll never take care of another car.

Last thought for the day.....I leave for Vegas in 8 days and I'm so excited. However, leaving for Vegas also means turning 40. Not that excited about that part.